2 weeks confinement in camp.. 10days into confinement.. I was made to lost my love one.. Forever... Why must this happen to me? Does my grandma deserve this? leaving this world still worried about me.. unable to see me for 1 last time before leaving this world... Ah Ma was always worried for me before i enlisted and i am sure she is right until her last breath.. What i wanted her to know was that i can cope with life inside and let her see me in my smart 4 to make her feel less worried for me.. Why wasnt i given the chance.? Why made her leave in such a sudden manner? Just suddenly her blood vessel in her brain burst and caused her to be brain dead while she was preparing dinner.. It really hurt me to lose my ah ma... I was clutching her hands to accompany her on her last journey just like what i will always do when walking her home... this was wad i wanted to do.. the beeping of the machine indicating her heartbeat rate really made things worse.. the feeling is very bad.. very very bad.. i held on until it reach zero.. thats the least i could do at the moment of time..
I really miss Ah Ma.. I miss her cookings.. i missed her everything.. she was such a doting grandma who dotes on her grandchildren especially me.. she did all these things not asking anything in return.. there is no way i can see her anymore.. memories are the only things that i have of her.. I love u Ah Ma.. If given the chance, i hope i can be ur grandson in my next life..
