Have lots of things running through my mind these days.. If u ask me what they are, I also cant seems to give u the answer to what on my mind.. A person thinkin alot but dunno whats really in his brain.. Weird u may say...
Eman told me that I dont tell her bout my feelings and what I am thinking to her face to face.. Maybe i find it hard to talk to bout this stuff but I am trying to do so.. I have a heavy reliance on IT stuff le, even to the extent of telling ppl hw i feel? I hope I am not heading this way.. This sounds so bad that I cant tell hw i feel to my love one face to face but only thru the help of technology... Will definitely look into it and improve kay!!!
Today while i was doing sentry, mark (my rp man) start saying to me.. "Have i told u the 2 missing camp pass story?" I was like no but he sound v interested therefore i decide to ask him bout it.. He started tell me that he and tawfiq (another useless rp 2ic) found 2 camp pass in the uniform of the trainees in the washing machine.. He started to sound happy that they found 2 camp pass and says that the trainee was so stupid to have washed their camp pass which was kept in 1 of the pocket.. After which he didnt return the pass to them and he decided to hand it over to higher authority so that that 2 poor trainee will get EXTRA duties.. He was so happy and made the whole story like so "humourous".. All this while i was having the "WHATS SO FUNNY LOOK AND ATTITUDE" I dont really understand what this ppl are thinking..
How come we are of the same age but their level of sensibility and maturity seems to be much lower than mine. I am not trying 2 say that I am very sensible of maturity but being at the age of 21, shldnt most ppl shld be able to think the right way make the right decision and not being so naive and always imagine this imagine that like what tawfiq usually does.. I really dont like the idea of them telling me imagine this imagine that, i just cant find the motivation to entertain their thought.. Whenever the sentence starts with imagine, i would switch off and i will miss out 90% of what they said.. I am not saying that imagining things are bad, just that over imagine really overkill things and imagination shld be practical and not some stupid ideas..
Next thing is on of man wants to borrow money from me to fund an abortion.. At first i agreed on it, however thinking back now i kinda regret because i somehow become an accomplice in killing a life.. I didnt think that much at 1st, what i tot was he is in need of help and i m just offering what i can.. I think i m terribly wrong in doing so.. I am really in a dilemma.. Bt he is so young 18 yrs old, do u think the kid will be able to take care of another kid? I really dont know.. Can someone advice me on what shld i do?
