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1 year soldier

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @ 1:00 AM

Its been one year since I i enlisted into army, still remember the day that I enlist on 7th Sept 2006. A day that will always be in my mind and heart, my mum and dad send me to Tekong had lunch together at pasir ris before going in. Sense of uncertainty and excitement in me. This was also the day that i last heard the voice of my grandma as i bid her farewell asking her not to worry bout me. At first i didnt want to call her as i dont want her to worry bout me but i am glad i did.. I really am, the talk with her nearly made me cry on that day while on the car but i told myself i shldnt as I dont want to worry my love ones but a simple farewell ended up being the last one..

People always said Army is a transition for all Singapore Boys to become MAN. It really did, the trainings, the experiences, the friends did. What changed ME most was the events that happened outside. The past 1 year contains the happy and sad times. Ironically the happy time usually happen in camp while staying and fooling ard with my bunk mates while the sad times happened outside. However, there is one thing i hate and hope it wont happen again is the experience of being called into the office and your instructor call u to call back home. I had unpleasant experiences very unpleasant ones..

Read on Jiaxing's blog that he is willing to sell his 1yr to ppl who is in need of time. How i wish i can actually buy back time, back to the day i enlisted. I would have handled things differently, I would have treated ppl around me differently, my grandma, my mum and ppl ard me if i had know that 1 yr later i would be a completely changed person.

I must admit that I aint really that poor thing as compared to many others. I know I still have ppl who will be there to support me, but things arent just the same. I am still happy but I am not as happy as i used to be. If happiness has a scale of 10, i be at 7. I used to think that I am a lucky and fortunate boy who was always showered with love by my mum and grandma which they always do but God like to play afool of ppl who are happy. My SISPEC section commander Sgt Asrudin once said, "It not good to have everyone happy, someone needs to be upset. When everyone is happy, some bad things are bound to happen." I think back its quite true. For the past year when I am happy and not worrying, something really bad happen. God is jealous of me.

360 days remaining.. I just want to Serve And F*** off (SAF)..

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Baby why'd you leave me

Hi, i am junhao.. this is my channel for me to write about my feelings sometimes what u want is not what u get what u see is not what it is

i miss you..

Why'd you have to go?


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