Its been 8 mths since I last posted an entry...
Been thinking of what to talk about for the past few days.
A friend of mine in Poly and currently a groupmate of mine in RMIT said I changed. He said that I was very jovious and happy guy back in poly but now I seems stress and troubled.
Have I changed?
Maybe I did, Maybe not..
If i had changed it must be because of my life experience during the past 3 years since I graduated in poly..
I am still missing mum.
In good and happy times, I would feel that why isnt she around to witness all the good things happening. Felt incomplete without her around and without her presence the family would just not be the same as before. It still hurts and I know everyone in the family is missing her although no one is saying so.
In bad times, I would miss her too as I would want her to be around to give me advice and see me through. Its not about the advice, its more on the moral encouragement she would provide. I know eman would still also be around me to support me.
Life is about missed opportunity and chances taken. If I had not passed my IPPT in BMT, life would have been different. Somethings may not have happened? My NS life would have been different. I wouldnt be a MP and I could have prevented somethings from happening?
Is this all fate, pre planned? Or its I dunno...
I love the Ones around me and I hope no one will ever leave me suddenly again.
I know Mum is someone around and looking over us.
Love and Miss You.
Your dearest son...
